THE DEATH OF SATISFACTION
“Bound to a limited form. Impermeable edges and sterile borders. Without usual fluidity of existence. We continue to hope for relief while gathering an obstructed view.
The restraints we cannot see, but we can feel.
One may ask us to step forward, and this step will end all that is familiar. Intense craving.
Summoning swift release in death. Or ego death.
We will only be born again to realize what is dying inside us.
The battery of our heart powers our mind, and outlasts all thoughts and prayers.
Each morning. The heart awakens all systems. To new life.
To try again. A lost paradise we must regain.
Our true claim to aliveness, the battery of our soul, the heart is the only way forward.”
- RYAN UZILEVSKY
“Vanished the veils of light and shade.
Lifted every vapor of sorrow
Sailed away from all dreams of fleeting joy
Love, Hate, Health, Disease, Life, Death.
Creations molding furnace.
Without willful return, a mental chloroform, spotless in my mental sky, below, ahead and high
This experimental short film explores how our lives are controlled by the hopes and fears in our heart, until the moment when someone else relinquishes our fears, and gives us hope.
But then, our hope becomes controlled by that someone.
Sooner or later, that someone will give our hopes and fears back to us, and in this moment, which feels like death, we are born again.
Filming took place on location in Goa, India
Producer, Alex Lyle and Director Ryan Uzilevsky put together the cast and crew largely based on members of the Vaayu Vision Art Collective, organized by Jill Ferguson. The performers Nilaya Sabnis and Neil Enggist, were met at another event in Rajasthan, and invited to Goa to play the role. Bombay based DP, Sachin Pillai was the final piece of the puzzle when he agreed to shoot the film. The costume was made by hand with coconut ropes by Ryan Uzilevsky who was living in India at the time.